Thursday, April 8, 2010
Plainly Emotional. I just miss you Mother.
Today is late Mom's 52nd Birthday. Happy Birthday Ibu. I Miss and I love you so much. How I wish you were here to be with me. How I wish you were here to see how much Qia and Kak Ilah has grown up. With thousand obstacles in our family. Ive got so many things in my mind right at this moment,I don't know what is happening. Because as you know I am incapable of doing anything to make all these harsh pain to be forgotten. Urg. Why? I have a father. Which oh still exist? Or not. My brain is thinking too much now. Too much lah sial. Ibu,I hope you're fine up there. In heaven. I'm sorry If I have never been the daughter maybe you wished to see at your expectations. I am who I am right now. You leave me too early. I'm only 7. And now I'm going 19 soon. I'll pray for you. Ibu, I'm just glad your sister is here to give us a shelter. I reaaaaaly appreciate that. Ibu,believe me. I promise I will study hard,go to a good school and having the perfect job for me. But for now I need to work. To support me. Me and me. You got the whole picture right. I dont know what I am doing right now. Its as if I'm writing to you mother. You are watching me every seconds. I know. Its just that I cant feel you. You see,what has happen to a family that was once build by you? Its over.
And how much I will come and bury all my love around you.
Rest in peace:')when you thought my life is as great as you.
1:56 AM
