life as it is.
This time I should say I hate raya for this time. Excluding the foods and $$$! Cos' it sucks at this moment. Whilst others celebrate with joy with their parents and siblings. Otherwise for me. ALOT of unexpected occur. I think its better not spitting it out here. But for once I knew that I failed being a daughter. I failed being an example sister. I failed having a family. a proper one as it is. My stepmom, Ive done millions shits of hurting her. In the first day, i failed seeking forgiveness. Again, I hate that guts in me. I hate my Dad. Well,for now, taking responsibility seems dull to him. I missed my little ones the most. Without them during hari raya, alot seems amissed. I cherished those moments when I talked to her. When I share my moments with my stepmom. Regard her as my mum. But nevertheless, it's totally different now. Going back home without her addressing me is already tough. Now, without her anymore in the house, seems tougher. The only thing that can change this family around as it used to be? My DAD. Either he do something about it.Or she'll do it first. then he'll regret it Big time.
Anyway,like I said, I was saving money for my Birthday..I guess got to cancel that. saving money to KL with Aidah and all November later. INSYAALLAH.
The first day of raya were spent outside visting relatives blablabla.taking millions of pictures. and so. here are some pictures. From raya, Iftar with friends and my FNB class.
