Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Lost and found.

When you say life sucks. Do you know what's the absolute meaning of it? Do you actually realise what you are spouting out from your mouth? Or maybe you should think about the other poor people who lives without a shelter. Without a family. Maybe we all should do that. I have been trying to be the best since forever but I never get anywhere. Right now I have come to the end of my road. Never have I been uncertain in my life. ever. Now I'm pretty lost of what is happening to myself. Why does the best moments in life doesn't last long. Why do all have to change? I still remember when i was tad young,my stepmother use to love me,care for me even if I am not from her own flesh. You know I have started to appreciate things even right now. I miss all these moments. I miss the time when I got back home from school and tell her stories. I lose my own mother once.Then now even my stepmother left me. With my two little siblings. Again,I miss them like sooooooooo much. Ill never ever trade the joys we shared for anything in this world. Never. Life has never ever been truly joyous without a family to share it with. Hence right now I have no one else to tell my stories no more. To share my love. Only with my lovely friends and sister. I appreciate all of it. Im now in a state of missing too much people. Even my life. period.

10:51 AM

Monday, March 29, 2010

Meet up with my ex sec mates.
Dinner at Simpang.
Talking and reminiscing about the past.
Ah,sweet memories.
Head to Bedok Reservoir Platform.
Awesome.

That's all people.

10:42 AM

Sunday, March 28, 2010

how much can i agree on this?

4:55 PM

12:26 PM

Di Antara Kalian.

Ku akui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu
Tapi kini ku sadar ku diantara kalian
Aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi

Ku akui ku sangat sangat mengharapkanmu
Tapi kini ku sadar ku tak akan bisa
Aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi

Chorus.
Lupakan aku kembali padanya
Aku bukan siapa2 untukmu
Ku cintaimu tak berarti bahwa
Ku harus memilikimu slamanya

Ku akui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu
Tapi kini ku sadar ku diantara kalian
Aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi

Aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi

11:36 AM

Pictures over the weekends.

with Mai Mentel and Is.

with Mr berg-seh.

sleepover princess at Naddy hs.

..rotting at work. watching the rain every single day,every single time.

Bye.

8:57 AM

Friday, March 26, 2010

Hahahahahhaha.

When I grow up I want to be a......

I'm still clueless of my future you see. Yes Jun,I don't want to take bus 28 go school or work anymore.I want to drive a car. Ceeeh.

1:04 PM

Thursday, March 25, 2010

TODAY,TOMORROW AND SO ON.

Sigh,what a bore. How do I update my life when all I do is work and work and rot. Im looking forward for my pay. Well,who doesn't huh. Going to do pretty much some shopping and pay my bills.Pay loans and all. Arrg. Fcuk care,Im gonna head one of the club soon as I got my pay,Its time to dump the stresss away and gonna party till I drop. So who's with me? Anyway, had to work tomorrow again and Saturday! haiyayayayayaya. *ka-ching*-money is rolling in baby so its really worthwhile isnt it?
Im left here trying hard surviving this life which I had to or supposed to bear with. Cobaan. Dad doesnt seems to change. Mum? oh,did I say all has disappeared from my life months ago? My little lovely siblings all gone simply like that. Awesome I know right. I have never felt this poor before. You know the feeling when you are heading to work and you realised your wallet are left with coins to buy the standard tickets?And that's when your friends came to help you. Had that feeling before? Wished you had a clue. It sure sucks. Sigh,atleast I still have a shelter to live with.Well,talking about money-wise,that's what I have turned to become.How wasteful can I get?

1:29 AM

Sunday, March 21, 2010

I love me.

How do you leave the past behind, when it keeps finding ways to get to your heart?
Smile. It's easier than explaining why you're sad.
Anyway Ive missed partying. Been quite some time huh.I hasn't been in my state of mind recently. My life has gone bonkers.I've been working most of the days in a week. Well,apparently I'm saving up for my Jakarta trip with my awesome babes.Praying hard because i really need to get out of this shell as soon as possible.I need shopping and also for my personal expenses. Never felt this cashless before. This total lack of concern has been fucking me off. Even if I am not meant to have a family. I have my lovely friends. My lovely Aunts to save me from all these shits that wasn't meant to. I should be getting back on tracks. I need to work. I need money. Why? Because nothing else in this world matters anymore except for myself and my elder sister. Even if I'm incapable of having my life back,life has to move on eh.Sometimes small little things makes me on top of the world. Sometimes small little things would make me upset. What I'm trying to say is, 

No matter how tough your life is. You still have your mother. To weep. To hug. To share your love.
ME?

12:31 AM

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

LOVES IT! AWESOME!
Spot Lady Gaga's younger sister in one of the scene.

3:22 PM

Sunday, March 14, 2010

WHAT THE FUCK RIGHT.

I know,hasnt been blogging properly recently,anyway life pretty much the same.
my life hasnt changed. In fact it is rotting.Remember when you were younger and had so many sweet and memorable dreams of how life will be like when you're older,now it's just bullshit to me.Hard to explain.God is testing me. Im taking it chill. I swear its painful.but what the heck right.These are some pictures over the weekends,weekdays. Not much to blogged anyway.