Friday, May 29, 2009

How much I adore her.LOL.
Sure some of you have seen this.I've watched this umpteen times or more,but still..Haha.

DAMN!

2:34 AM

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

What the hell are they thinking?

I was watching some videos on Youtube.Saw this link,you know those piercings,tattooing.
Then,tongue splitting.Im sure some of you have heard this right.Now look at this incredibly damn video.Oh my God,the moment I watch this video,It fucking creep me out.haha.

Would you guys do a tongue splitting?NO!For heaven's sake,don't ruin your tongue.LOL.

Look at the woman's hand!shaking tremendously!

Crazypeoplewithdumbhead!

cheeros!

11:34 PM

that impulsive feeling.

And so,as days pass by.Everything's hasn't changed,and now,that sudden feeling occurs me.

What if,the person that I use to share all my sorrow,my life,my smile and laughter and my blood changes its way,the attitude.The days that we used to be so incredibly close.Hard to describe.

I know the time has come,where everything starts to fall apart where she lead her own way.and I lead my own.And now that we are not living in one roof,

Anything that came across my mind about you ,

tears will start rolling down.because I miss you.The old you.

and I love you.

Sister,why?

Whatever.fuck it.

Anyway,on Sunday night,went out with Dina.

I bought myself a Vans Shoe which I have been aiming since a few months back.

Finally,i got one.

Then,went to watch midnight movie, Angels And Demons at Ehub.Yes,finally,Im so Into the show.Rating would be 9/10.haha,serious.must watch.The 2Hr30Mins show is so worth it!

Unlike The Uninvited.haha.

Go and watch it!ending post here.cheeros!

'Sit quietly, doing nothing, spring comes, and the grass grows by itself '

10:11 AM

Sunday, May 24, 2009

help.
Why am I having these fucking thoughts on my mind again?Im hoping for a slightly better things would actually be at home.Now.What is happening?
Just quarrel with my father,and now he's ignoring me.Fuck.Look at my face.You think I fucking care about what is going to happen next?No.Im just plain lazy to even think about it.Pressure .
Im feeling it right now.Fuck Fuckety Fuck Fuck Fuck.
I can always smile in pain.I can always Laugh in any way.However I knew at home,It has always been a mixed feeling.I can cry,laugh or whatever.See,maybe I should say Im someone who likes keeping things to myself,because I knew even if I were to tell anyone,nothing can help it either.And so i willl start wandering.I will start feeling to do things that I have never done before.Is dying a solution?
Haha.chill.
Im just exaggerating.
urgg.
Whatever it is.Im always strong...

Anyway,
Finally,I just bought a camera!Yes,Im happy.
Im so going to take millions and millions of photos.=D
So,yesterday at work in a boring Saturday as usual,I took a number of pictures.

Haha.Testing lerr.

My small sister!

And So I finish up my drawing .

upclose.

finally,
Mr Fisherman.

caramel waffle.

My alltime favourite,Turkey fritatta.

testing.

nice shot of an espresso shot .

My Saturday store.''Hello,people,It's open! ''

ending post here.

suddenly i feel like Im just as Alice.

Taking pictures forever.haha.

cheeros:)

2:15 PM

Thursday, May 21, 2009

The Title .

Congrats for American Idol winner.

KRIS ALLEN!

hurrah!

Didnt expect that in anyway.

Anyway!

Randomly,check out this 72 years old Isobel Varley,the world's most tattoed senior woman in World Records.

Shuts!Do you call this art?

Busuk tetek terlondeh

=_=''

sleepy .zzzzz.

10:04 PM

a game of blank mind.

Having such a weak week.lame and dull.everyday is the same old thing.school is getting abit annoying for me recently with those 3D.rigging,constrain,parent..err,thats all i know i think.urrg,if you ask me to redo,i rather kill myself.serious.and that still doesnt make me lost interest in my course!

apparently,i just felt like sleeping all the way.sigh.life is so clueless.staying at home doesnt cure me either.even right now,im blogging,alot of things is happening at home.its really a must for me to clear all these fucking shits Im having in my brain that is playing in my mind right now.im just a few steps away of giving up.on what?see,I can't even think straight.problems at home have been bombarding in my mind since..lets not talk about my family problem.Im still strong in any way.I know.only school still makes me smile afterall.sneakingly playing the very addicting pet society.hehe.Blame Jun for this.and everyday is a must for the Trading Tactics.;)

okay,anybody to accompany me doing some shopping this weekends?

catch a movie or something?

or going JB with me.hahks.

thats the best thing for now that can killl my time.

A cure of trying out new things as long as you're living in this world.face the fact.Im not fucking going to hide my face inside those fluffy pillows of mine and cry all my heart out.enough of all my problems.its creeping me out.I know.I may look happy in the outside of me.I can even brighten up your day even though I cant do it otherwise.Inside of me?nah..not much of you know.shuts.

anyway..

these are some due pictures:

cheeros!

Sister.

Do we look same here?

Dina and Sis!

Nadiah!

ending post here.;)

enjoy life to the fullest!

cheeros.

8:13 AM

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

comp's down.

and I'm down.

=_=''

2:51 PM

Saturday, May 16, 2009

heyho.
well.havent been updating some stuffs.
well,the past few days,went cycling with Dina at East coast park.then we went supper with my sis at ECP lagoon.super shiok.then came the terrible part.after all 3 of us being so full,we decide to give the bicycle back to the rental.and its like so freaking far.but still no choice.I cycled the bike,Dina skate back and my sis got to walk.and since i find both of them too slow,i speed up..and thats when...a slope,a bike and me.and there I go.flat to the ground.macam nangka busuk.oh my god.I stood up.look around me.fuh..no one.luckily my sis and Dina were nearby..and duh..seek for helplah.my body is so aching after so long havent been cycling,and then I fall.wow.my muscles work out extremely painful.and since its getting worse after i woke up from sleep,didnt attend school yesterday.sigh.cant break the record of attending school one whole week straight.whatever.

the uninvited.
went and catch a movie with Nadiah yesterday night.shit.waste my 10 bucks.rating is like super 6/10.maybe?
it was quite scary.but the storyline is complicating.
anyway2.

Bad Day at work.
after went back home,had to sleep early.cos,just now Ive got a morning shift after so long havent been working.and seriously super lazy.but im freaking broke right now.it was such a bad day and yet demanding arrogant irritating customers.some ask ..''Is the food fresh?..''Venti only got 2 shot?!!!''.then this Jap couple ordered confidenly to me..''I want a Signature HOT Chocolate.''After making for them.they came back ''I want ICE can?''I smiled.and replace again.Some even cant be decisive.First Tall,then Grande.thanks ehhhh.you tell me after I key in everything.Bad Bad day:(

okay ending these post with some drawings Ive done recently.

Bob Marley;)

Lauren Conrad.
Anyone know her?
still,i always hated my shading!

okay.whatever.
ending post here.;)
will upload pics soon.

cheers.

7:22 PM

Friday, May 15, 2009

confused.

I have never been lost.but i will admit of being confused for several weeks.damn.

and i believe not all those who wander are lost.

any rescue words for me.

I want to eat.

bye :/

and give me that puff .

again and again.

update soon.

sigh.

4:55 AM

Sunday, May 10, 2009

hangover .

fuck.

I seriously cant remember what happen yesterday.went out with alip and the rest.Havent met them for so long.Plan cockup.In the end, Fai and Ady and me went to drink.first was awesome.then we get the second bottle of smirnoff.and thats when..
i dont know.Iqah came with afai and friends i think.then they went off.i was so high.i so wanna see haily's video he took when we all were drunk.cant remember a thing.haha..and i was freaking drunk.damn .and Iqah miss it.its been long i drank with her.satu hari eh iqah.ahha.dengar cakap laki.amek kau.;DDDD
anyway,i enjoyed myself with them.see you guys soon!;)

anyway anyway.

It's Mother's Day today.doesnt really see much of the difference.It's the same old thing.except maybe bought my mum a gift.;)

Happy Mother's Day Umi.

well,maybe when i grow older,i've started to miss Ibu .again and again.I wonder what will she see on me being like this if she's here.only pictures describes everything when im young.I really miss her.Having someone to replace her,wont make any difference on me.even if Umi is trying her best to show me that love of a mother,doesnt change from loving my natural mum.and whats getting worse.the moment i grew older,this is what i have been realising,evrything's fading.sometimes it crossed in my mind saying that maybe Umi is some stranger in my home.we always quarrel over small little things.she 's different.always wanting the best for her children.Im not jealous you see.im big enough to think.but sometimes i wonder why do i grow up without a mother.yes,I have Umi.she's the one who have been taking care of me since im 7.but I knew i just cant click with her.her lifestyle.damn.sometimes,i would think back,maybe God is giving me a challenge.even my sister whom i use to be so close is not with me right now.taking care of my grandma.and i will call her mostly everyday,checking things out.or meeting her up for dinner or something.i miss her too.she's now my everything.my dad?im speechless.dont feel like talking about him.im living my life to the fullest right now.and to those who have your mother with you always by your side.cherish her well.cos,when she's gone,you'll realise she's your everything.i mean it.

Happy Mother's Day Ibu.Rest in peace.;)

cheers.

2:16 PM

Friday, May 8, 2009

before movie starts..
we do.....

me n Dina;)

Not much to say right now.I know I am thinking of something right now.Something.And its a bit of bothering me.But I just cant figure it out.=_='

sigh.

cheers.

10:42 PM

damn.

I couldn't sleep right now.feel like blogging.well,i just got back home from the movies with Dina.watch Horsemen.rating sucks.The ending would make you just stare at the credits and WTF.and also busy camwhoring with dina just now before the movie starts.haha.that was really fun Dina!.will post some if i had time.

and again these have been happening for the past few days.i will stop using the comp,and sleep at 5am.and school would be just in a few hrs time.

Im stucked up staying at home.I just miss working.and again I have not been working for freaking 2 weeks straight.Saturday is PH.ass.Guess i would be back by next week.miss my partners too.thus,no choice for me.if only school starts in the morning everyday and end at 3 or 4.atleast it do make a huge difference.I can work at 5 or 6.and i hate attachments.please people stop asking why.I just hate it working in another store.cos' im in such a comfortable zone in my store area.and it's been a year working.pfft.and now im broke.and my bank is growing spiders already.fuck.Waiting for June hols'.Im going to put a full schedule.

Well,something bad happen just now.I knew it that a fight is going to happen just now.and I swear,friend you're lucky I came randomly and met you guys.or you would fucking cry with your fucking bruises that ur lovely fucking guy gave you with just the two of you quarelling.If i were to follow my fucking anger just now,when i push you by the side,I swear i would slap you.To make you realise that it's over between the two of you.I have no heart to do that friend cos I still regard you as a close friend of mine.and after all that tiff,I ask you again,You still want him?and you replied a fucking answer..'yes..qia.I still love him.'Oh my god.im speechless when you spout that.i didnt regret calling you just now a dumbass and a stupid friend i ever had.cos,you are a lovesick girl.I doubt what is going to happen next.

funny.I have always been a third party in settling a fight.Last time was S and A relationship.and now its S and F ones.but you know something ,all these things taught me a lesson in going into a relationship.it does.

Bla bla bla.Love is blind shit.

a Random postt.
some due picture .

at cash studio with Sis and Dina.

ending here.very sleepy.and VERY tired.;(nites.

cheers.

2:46 AM

Thursday, May 7, 2009

why do a person have such a low self esteem?

I am just so puzzled.yet angry too.and it makes me think too that even words can bring you down.

Friend,Im not saying that anybody in this world is perfect.but that doesnt mean that you are so imperfect.let me tell you,even you are better looking than me.your body everything.but never in my mind crossed that i felt this feeling called jealousy and it never struck in my mind to hate you.and right now you are feeling this way.mind you, and mind you again,you are fucking 18.why are you thinking this way?11 months in your relationship is very long.I know you even longer.and i have learnt you.your attitude.and this is the word that i can imply you.

A low self-esteem.you have confidence in yourself.but you are not using it at the right time.yet you can ask me over and over again,am i so ugly that he hates me so much.and i fucking hate it whenyou ask me these silly ass question.the answer is hell no.we are all normal.we are all gorgeous.how many times has he ask for a break up?umpteen times right.you know whats the reason.both of you are wrong.he's a big headed guy.a hot tempered guy.and you?a nice lady that is so giving in.so scared of him.so soft as a jelly.and yes,youre stupid.friend,wake up.we are all getting matured.leave him.he called you a millions of harsh words.and what will you do?Cry.that's all.

and it irritates him.and thats when you guys will quarrel.and when you cry again and again,calling me with the same story,Now I get irritated.Its not that I am not helping you.Im just plain lazy.cos whatever advise i've told you,you ignored.sayang ?with him?fucklah.friend,you are getting on my nerves.dont make it one day that I will confront you in a harsh way.and i have never ever did that.but i will to make you wake up.wake up in this world of reality.never ever let a guy get over your head.if love is so hard for you,why are you still sticking on it?get a life lah.

why?tell me.=_='

cheers.

3:48 AM

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

NSYNC

im so missing this old boyband,NSYNC.

I even remembered that I was so crazy to this band,I went off buying their stickers,CD,and even keeping their posters.haha.was so way back like when im 9,10 years old.and i would choose Justin Timberlake while my Sister would choose JC Chasez.Gosh,they are fucking freakeh hot i tell you!and now evryone of them is on their own way,and like duh,my fav one would outshine them lah.who else?;DDDDD

NSYNC!!;))

handsome kan!!!

ending post here.

cheers.

5:06 PM

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

hey ho..
well,yesterday went to karaoke at Bedok,Princess there.didn't know there's cashbox studio there.with my sis and friend.had a great fun there despite knowing that i am really tired from school okay!but seriously,what to do..i seldom work,in fact no shift this week.sigh.i really need to enjoy shit!
okay,these are some due pictures
last saturday,went to jb with my colleagues to attend Nurin's wed.oh my,i so wanna get married;)and it's my first time attending a Wed at Jb.surprisingly,it's grand.and these some of the pictures.